When I was in college a few years ago I went off my AP for a little over a year, I was just on my mood stabilizer and ADs during that time. I did well but then I started having issues again eventually so had to start on APs again. I wonder if I could manage that again, it might be possible

Why can't I get over my hatred of these meds

I just need to accept them but it's hard.

I need/want a good 6 months of solid stability, I have to keep taking them and stop messing with/stopping them. Maybe then after that my doctor and I can visit this topic again and decide whether I could come off the APs