I’m just hanging out today. My mom is doing some grocery shopping for me. She got her booster last week. Covid is bad where I am and it’s scary how people are just dropping like flies even with the vaccine. I’m worried with my health and not having my booster shot yet. And I don’t think I’m being unreasonable either. But anyways today I have noticed a difference between this Sunday and other Sundays the day after I usually get my shot. I’m a lot more relaxed and not all crazy angry and anxious. So I guess my doctor was right about what was causing my issues. I’m a bit more turned on then I usually am but it’s not like so crazy I can’t distract myself kinda turned on. Like it’s not The frustrating type I sometimes get. But I’m just hanging out today watching Project Runway. I’m watching season 4 which I got from the library because it’s like $80 on Amazon and it’s not on any streaming service. Before I transitioned I used to look like Christian Sirano the way he currently looks now. My therapist at the time and my mom said the same thing. I don’t know who I look like now. The way I dress and with my facial hair I often feel like a truck driver or Ben from that HGTV show.

But yeah I’ll admit it probably wasn’t the smartest idea this morning to go to Starbucks for an iced latte when my doctor just told me I’m at a high risk for a heart attack or a stroke. But I mean he didn’t tell me not to drink caffeine…