I'm not dealing with this pandemic well at all, and mean people everywhere keep trying to rub it in my face how it doesn't affect them, how they never got sick - as if it were all in my head or all my fault. They want to rub it in more and more and more and more and more, by saying how mental I am for being affected by the pandemic when they are not. As if it is okay for me to be punished for having a friend die of Covid-19, or for having experienced Asian-based racism, or having experienced worsening mental illness, or having experienced worsening physical illness. Because they hate me; they hate people like me; they don't want me to live healthy; they want me to be gone; and they shove it in my face over and over and over again whenever they kick me when I'm down and hurting and say, well, they are okay, as if to imply that I should be okay and bow down to their rule, as if a slave to them and their rule. It hurts me how much the alt-right remind me of ritual abuse, spiritual abuse, childhood abuse, bullying, and more.