My doctor claimed I wouldn’t have any side effects going off of it. But I was such a mess anxiety wise and I was so exhausted I couldn’t do anything except lie in bed. I did take a melatonin at 10AM because I wanted to sleep because I wasn’t feeling good and I got about an hours worth. But I was just so tired all day and too tired to eat anything and my anxiety was sucky but I still stayed on track with everything. My visteril was ready around 2 and by the time my mom got home with it it was close to 3. So I took that and my other prescribed stuff and I could only drink a protein shake for dinner. But I slept for close to 13 hours. I woke up very anxious but I took another visteral along with a Valium and my topamax and I feel decent. I ate a protein bar around 3:30 so I don’t feel hungry. But my endocrinologist said I wouldn’t have any side effects yet I can’t pull myself out of bed and so I guess I just have to wait for another 10 days. I hope I don’t get super turned on when I go back on it. But my weight did drop from yesterday. So that’s good.

I guess my mom picked up the car last night while I was asleep. Which means we can do stuff and go out places today. So far I’m still lying in bed feeling like complete shite physically. But my meds seem to have helped my anxiety at least. So maybe I’ll get the energy to do something. I feel like if I just force myself to get out of bed and put on my boots and a hoodie and go watch The today show ill automatically feel better since it’s physical and not mental health today.

Well I put on my boots and my hoodie and my hat and I brushed my teeth and I put on my scar gel. I watched The Today Show for half an hour. Then I went to Taco Bell for a burrito. And none of that did anything to wake me up. I am still a complete lethargic mess and I’m back in bed now and now I’m kinda pissed as well. I had some bleeding this morning as well despite being careful all day yesterday.