Well I ended up getting a small iced peppermint mocha iced coffee with skim milk and Splenda. And it was amazing what it did to my body. Last week I ordered a pair of jeans from Target and they arrived today but they were a bit too loose for my comfort. They were relaxed fit when I usually wear straight or bootcut. So instead of ordering online again and then returning to the store later I decided to just go to Target to return them and go shopping for jeans myself instead of online. I found a decent size pair of actual Levi’s not Target brand. In the color and texture and fit I wanted. The whole trip took about 45 minutes. But it wore me out and I’m in bed again. I’m not lying down though. But it was for sure the coffee that gave me the brief wave of energy so I could leave my house because I didn’t do anything differently and I didn’t take anything. I just had some caffeine. So I’m guessing it really is a side effect from stopping the med suddenly. I haven’t heard back from my doctor yet. I’m not really having any other side effects besides being lethargic. My moods and anxiety are overall better then before. My appetite is still being controlled with my topamax and my anxiety is much better once the visteril was put in last night. So yeah this is just some weird **** going on with the lack of testosterone. I hope my doctor has some answers or this passes in the next couple of days.

I am getting to the point of being unable to function again so it looks like I’ll just be drinking a protein shake for dinner again since I don’t have the energy to make anything. Or even peel an egg if I’m being honest. I don’t have the energy to stand over the kitchen sink.

I forgot I have therapy in person Tomorrow. Early. I like this lady a lot but if I’m the way I was today she’s gonna think it’s a poison control, Pdoc, primary, ER type issue the way she always thinks my issues are. Despite the fact it’s a lack of meds issue that’s out of my control instead of the other way around and I’ve already contacted my doctor. So hopefully things are better. Maybe I’ll get coffee before I see her. Like right before.