Dear Temp T,

Thank you for getting back to me. Thank you for saying you are glad we get the chance to work together. Thank you for still having my session slots even after 2 months.

I'm looking forward to seeing you. I'm looking forward to just having a place to be me again. To just try and let things settle inside of me. I'm looking forward to you helping me navigate this path, even though we don't know what it looks like.

I'm looking forward to being able to look forwards again. And I'm hopeful that whatever we are doing here will be for the best in the long run.

I'm so determined, so driven, that sometimes I don't like the feeling of not moving forwards, but like my boyfriend once said to me "doing nothing is doing something, if doing nothing is what you need in that moment".

Right now I need to stop. I need to stop digging around in the foundations at a time when the whole world seems to have suffered an earthquake. I need to just figure out what this new landscape looks like. I need to find my feet again. That takes time. I didn't give myself enough time, but I am now. And next spring, maybe, I can go back to that if it still feels like where I want to be.

See you next week, I hope it feels as comfortable (admit ever can do!) As it did before.

Thank you