I remember my psych nurse/psychologist - He told me as a teenager, "If you take these meds until age 25 - when you're brain is finished developing, you could be cured".

I am 25 now.. I could wait a few more years idk.. But I feel pretty OK though. There might have been a misunderstanding - I complained about anhedonia mostly. So what I was hearing voices and had odd thoughts I was stressed come on..

I remember I had to do a Gaelic oral exam in school - I was having a panic attack almost every day, wearing a uniform, had intense fear of lunch time because I had to socialize.. It was ****ing horrible. Then my moms ex brings me to the prairies in isolation..

I sat all day in the basement, completely * up and deranged. A few years later, my exact room is where people smoked cocaine and where kids did their homework.. It's so much trauma everywhere in my existence.