How I feel!

This is me.... my life the last 2 years. Meet a girl, fall madly in love. Hangout together a few hundred times, shopping. casinos, movies, restaurants. Drooping food off at her door during the pandemic, Painting together, getting drunk... Going over seas, staying in hotels, renting cabins. Talking everyday morning to night, being there for her. Making sure she always had groceries, gas, money. Hearing her say she loves me.

Finding your best friend........ Making out once but not sleeping with her, even though she sleeps with tons of people. Spending a few hundred thousand. Getting in a fight, asking her if she was just using me, getting ghosted.

Feeling gross and unattractive, confused.... Having no closure.

Being sorry I lost my best friend.