I told my T everything I needed to tell her in session online today. She was very reassuring and helpful to me and my alters.

We still feel like crap, but we know it is from the icky trauma stuff.

We slept all day to deal with insomnia, changing sleep patterns, changing weather, barometric pressures messing with us, and all the tough work we did in therapy. The T had to help ground me again today because the alters wanted to talk about stuff I wasn't ready for, so my T helped me stay co-conscious while she helped the alters feel better about their painful experiences.

I asked my T if I could just go back to being dissociative so that I don't have to know anything anymore. She said something I can't remember, but I do remember that she said we can work on it in small pieces, and she reminded me that I'm safe, that nothing bad is going to happen to me. I almost started having a panic attack, but I actually made it without having one. So I slept after our session. I'm sort of waking now, but it's like the middle of the night/early morning. I ate something, but I'm tired again and want to sleep but then don't want to sleep at the same time. LOL.