Last night I was super lethargic because of getting off the whole med situation and not because of anything else. I ate an egg and drank a protein shake and I fell asleep around 6. I woke up at 11:30 and I was anxious. I made a Kraft macaroni and cheese cup in the microwave and I didn’t want to be up all night with anxiety and what else so I got back to sleep fairly quickly and I slept on and off until 4:30. Then I fell back asleep again for 20 minutes or so around 5:45. I have therapy this morning and I am not going to tell her everything because her only answer would be to go to the ER when this is not an ER issue. I am keeping in touch with my doctor and that’s all that needs to be done at this point. I don’t think she quite gets what is going on here. I’m not sure many people do except my mom and my doctor. So it may be best to limit what I tell her.

I have a bunch of painful blistering inflamed acne on my face due to my meds and it hurts so badly right now. I washed my face with soap and used my facial cleanser and that just burned so badly. I finally rubbed my face all over with acne cream but it’s still pretty painful. Also a piece of hair on the back of my head came out and I’m trying not to panic. I know it’s just one piece of hair but for ftm one of the side effects of the meds is hair loss. And hair loss runs big in my family. Bigots who are against trans people aren’t exactly wrong when they say these meds can be harmful to your body.

I at least seem to be more alert and awake after all that water I was splashing on my face for 10 minutes.