God I was acting like a complete drunk in therapy today. First off I told her my issues were testosterone related. And she did make the immediate care comment but she didn’t make it seem like it was necessary. But after that I was so lethargic and my vision was so blurry and I was just like blurting out my whole life story from age 13-18 about what school was like. Then I was going on about my sexuality and if I’m a trans guy and I like girls does that make me straight? And then I went on about work and other stuff and I was just going on about complete shite with my eyes closed and my thumb and forefinger pressing the bridge of my nose and spewing out word diarrhea for an hour straight. She thought it was great though that I was opening up so much and that she was getting to know me more. She suggested I either get a coffee or take a nap when the session ended so I got a coffee and I’m sitting up in bed. I mean I guess The session was actually quite productive. But I forgot to brush my teeth because I was dealing with my face issues after I got out of the shower but for once thank god for 6 feet apart and face masks.

But my doctor got back to me and he’s just like “try to hang on for 10 more days until you can start the lower dose.” So I don’t know. I guess my body just really needs to reset itself for the full 2 weeks and there’s not much I can do until then except take it easy.