I was having some physical issues that made me act kinda drunk in therapy today. I told her what was going on so she knew I wasn’t actually under the influence. But man did I spill my guts out. I was having double vision and I was super tired so I was doing the session with my eyes closed and my index finger and thumb pressed against the bridge of my nose. But I told her everything. I told her about my crush on my transference T and I reassured her I only like older women and I’ve never liked women my own age. I told her basically everything from knowing I liked girls since I was 5 to having a crush on a female teacher in 4th grade which then led to the entire Jr. High spreading a rumor that I was gay in 7th grade. Then our conversation led to the issues that happened after Jr. High and then my senior year in high school and then what my work environment was like. I don’t know. I acted like I was ****ing high the entire time and I had complete word vomit for an hour straight. But at least she knew I wasn’t under the influence. She seemed to think the session went great though since I opened up so much to her and she was getting to know me more. She did suggest though as I was leaving that I either take a nap or get coffee. I also forgot to brush my teeth though which I can’t remember forgetting to do when I had a therapy session in years because I was trying to deal with some painful face acne this morning. I admitted this to her but she didn’t seem to think it was a big deal.