It’s not your fault, but I feel right now like I’m almost back at square one - shutting down emotionally even though I don’t want to. I know why I feel like this, at least I think I do, but knowing why doesn’t always lead to knowing how to fix things. I’m more informed than ever, further forward than last year, but still don’t feel my main issue has been resolved. Is it wrong that I feel I’ve let you down as a client? Maybe this is just a blip and I’m not beyond being salvaged. Right now I’m just a bit numb, deeply confused and afraid.
But not giving up. I don’t want to let anyone down, not you, D, my family or myself.
See you tomorrow, anyway.