I just cannot stand feeling like this anymore. My mom and my brother are going out of town for the day and are staying in a hotel tomorrow and I’m thinking of going with them because I feel like that will snap me out of whatever this thing is I’m feeling. Like maybe I just need a change in scenery and I need to force myself to get up and be active and do stuff. I don’t think being by myself will make me feel any better or will be very healthy for me physically or mentally.

Edit: So I’ve decided to go on the trip with my mom and my brother. I think it will be good for my mental health and it will be good to get away from the scale for a day since it’s been stressing me out lately. I picked up my room a bit. It wasn’t a huge mess. But it was nice to get things cleaned up. I took my normal Geodon and I’m just lying down. I’ve had a good amount of water this afternoon and I feel better. I’ve learned on a thread I started that I need to be drinking a lot of water with my topamax. I’ve cut out soda and most tea but I haven’t been replacing all that with much water. So I wonder if not drinking enough water is partially why I’m so tired all the time.