Well that was an interesting night. My girlfriend told me to call the crisis line because I've been binging/purging all ****ing day so I did. I met up with a guy and brought my girlfriend with me. She was super helpful--explained the severity of my eating disorder and what she sees and the things I've told her. I told her earlier I kinda wanted to take all my lithium but she wouldn't let me keep that secret. I assured the guy evaluating me that I was safe and had no plans of acting on anything (although my girlfriend wants me IP). So I have to set up a physical with my PCP to make sure I'm not doing too much damage. I will get a call from the crisis people every day for the next week, and they're going to try to get me into see my NP sooner and set me up with a different therapist. They want to get me a case manager too but I thought that was only for people on Medicaid.
But it was nice to see my girlfriend. I hope we both stick around.
What is wrong with me I'm doing HIIT at freakin' midnight (after doing it for 30 minutes in the morning and going for a 30 minute run later on).