I’ve slowly become aware of my DID. I don’t know how many. But Jeremy has co-fronted with me many times before. I’ve done my research but I still feel unsure of a lot when it comes to my own system.

1. I have one that from what people have told me is definitely Jeremy. They don’t know I have no memory of these interactions. I also know because I’ve felt like I’ve watched him while I was in “the back seat.”

2. There’s another, though who can’t be Jeremy. This one seems to be a lot more interested in fun but occasionally volatile. He’s not mean but bolder.

I’ve found notes in my phone, and around the house I don’t remember leaving. Entries in journals, texts, the works, but I can’t seem to communicate with them. I don’t know who they are, or what they’re doing until I find whatever they left behind. Like makeup and clothes I’d never buy, or stories from others that don’t sound right. I wouldn’t believe it all if it weren’t for the memory gaps.

How do I find out more about them? I can’t afford regular therapy.