Hi and welcome to the Forums. It is nice to meet you.

I am sorry that you are burdened with DID. That must be an extremely heavy burden to bear. I do not know enough about DID to be able to be very helpful. I am wondering whether there are some self-help books out there in bookstores or public libraries that might be helpful? Or books one could order on the Internet?

There are people here on the Forums who struggle with DID. I hope they will see your post and respond to it in a kindly and helpful way. I want to wish you only the very best and apologize for not being able to be helpful to you!