I slept great last night compared to other nights this month. But right now I’m pretty tired. I took my vistril and my topamax and my 20mil Geodon and I haven’t had much water. I really just want to chug a bottle of water because I also have a headache and a fast heart beat but I’m not at home and I always get concerned about the bathroom situation when I’m out in public. I haven’t had an issue before with using the mens bathroom but I think I’m in trump land right now so idk. I have a full beard and I’m dressed like a guy but since I have to use a stall people may get suspicious. I’m honestly ready to just throw in the towel and tell my doctors and my family “yeah I’m ready for complete bottom surgery” I’ve been thinking about it a ton recently. But right now I’m just headachy tired and I could use both a glass of water and a trip to the bathroom. But I probably have another couple hours before I can use the bathroom until we get to our hotel.

For Black Friday I’ll have to completely dehydrate myself for hours since I am not using the bathroom at all while shopping that day even though I’m familiar with the stores and their bathrooms. It will just be too crowded everywhere.

Edit: We just checked into the hotel early and I am here by myself while my mom and my brother are out. I drank some water and I used the bathroom. So I feel better in those areas and my head doesn’t hurt anymore but I still am pretty tired. I’m glad I didn’t have to do all that stuff with them though and I can just relax now by myself. My face is super red because I had inflamed blistering acne for a few days in a row so I tried all this soap and acne cream and face wash and then last night and this morning I put on noxcema but now my entire face looks like a tomato. So Idk what’s going on with that. Just more transition stuff I assume.