Chaotic

I know what your saying, and I have not pushed them at all. One of them has acutally shared with me that she listens to a christian radio show at night, the women who does it is a counselor, my sister has been so wanting to call in but is so nervous too. I told her its completely normal to be nervous about that.

Honestly. I have not pushed anything........two are really ready, but shared that since they don't have insurance and money is an issue they haven't, one has been thinking about it......none of them agree with my mom at this point.
One of them called me today about my mom and said how upset they are with my mom and how she is pushing another sister of ours away.....I think its been a long time coming.
She also said she would be interested in doing a group session with me when I find one.

Sunrise..
Thats what my therapist has been suggesting me to do because shes only been hurting my healing process.
My mom is the type that will call me all upset if I don't call her for a couple days.

However, in her hurtful message today....she told me to just to stay away from her......like I was even trying to bother her........she confuses me so much....she says in one sentence, she is sorry for whatever, then the very next sentence says I am poisoning my sisters.....ugh....thats not sorry, not at all......its all about her right now....she has always been the type who has to be in control of everything with our family.....all my siblings know that, my sister in law even said to me the other day that my mom is so extreme..

But I am taking my mom up on her offer. My birthday is next week....and if there is something planned with her, I am not going......some of my family members may be upset with me....but this cycle is getting really old.....and personally, I can't take it , it hurts too much.