I slept the whole 2 hours on my way back home. Without any music. Well there was Christmas music playing on the radio but I didn’t have my headphones on. I didn’t take any vistril or any Valium or anything. I just crashed for 2 hours. This lack of meds in my system is really affecting my quality of life and it kinda sucks to feel like this. But I went to Walmart pretty much as soon as I got home and got my booster. I had no trouble getting it. So far what I’m feeling I think is anxiety from lack of food and lack of anxiety meds and lack of meds in general. With sleeping for 2 hours and then rushing to get my booster I’ve not been on track with my Valium and I haven’t had a vistril in over 24 hours since I didn’t bring them with me. I also haven’t eaten anything since this morning. So I’m trying to catch up with everything. I got some chili cheese fries from Sonic. The nap helped although I still feel worn out.

I saw a lady buying a Christmas tree at Walmart today. It’s no joke out there this year. You have to buy early. Luckily our old one still works.

Edit: I’m nauseated now and I have some muscle aches. Mostly in my back. But I figured it’s best to be feeling lousy from both the lack of meds in my system and the booster at the same time so the holidays can hopefully be less stressful. My mom just told me the boosters work right away. So I should be good I guess.

I took my vistril for the first time since 11AM yesterday. It doesn’t help much but it’s something at least. I took my first topamax at noon so I guess I should wait a bit for the second one. I didn’t plan very well for my trip med wise. I’ve been working on my sleep schedule but with the 2 hour nap I don’t know what tonight will look like. It’s early but I’m already in bed. I skipped the melatonin since I’m already tired.