Hi @Sapien👋👋

I hear you, such struggle omgosh. 😔 But there's hope, Sir. The fact that you're still able to laugh, still have a sense of humour, means, to me, you can do this. You still have a spark of life(!)

You could (continue to) make your point to live be about doing your best to cope and endure through your difficulties come what may, until positive change begins to occur, however long it takes. Yes. Find positives in life, small enjoyments, and see them as little lifelines to future happiness of stability. You see, in my darkest times which lasted too long for me to handle, that's what I did. I used reason and said things can't possibly get worse in my life (the final end was on the cards) but if I just continue to endure, to try, they can only improve. And slowly but surely they did improve - mentally and emotionally. Do you understand what I'm saying, friend? Your journey to psychological wellness, calm, inner stability etc., can be the point, with the firm belief it will happen. Your spirit is not dead yet Sapien! ((Hugs))