Thanks.. I cancelled the appointment.. But I'll make another one. The spots really bother me.

I'm looking forward to getting my new macbook pro and phone.. Those will improve my quality of life because a better internet experience will make me feel more organized etc because it wont be limited technology anymore..

I freak out because of the corruption/conspiracies. It's just like psychosis - I have no idea what is real. The dextroamphetamine allows me to stay awake and motivated enough to go into focused rabbit holes.

What I should do is live as if me + most people on earth are NOT going to die.. very soon within 5-10 years - Cuz no one knows if we will all die tomorrow..

I should play with the cats, watch a movie with my mom and relax.. That the spots aren't a sign of too much vaccine/Invega nanoparticle poisons..

I'm told that I should trust the scientists because they started out wanting to do something good and help humanity.. It's sad that I wanted to go to school and possibly be a scientist before I got depressed and then lost my mind.