I'm beginning to think that there are some people, myself included, who just need benzos. I think my pdoc is coming to that conclusion too. It's not so hard to see since I started tapering in 2019. I went from 2 mg hs to 1.75 mg hs. I managed to stay ok on that dose but without any more reductions through the time my father was dying and then after his death. In Aug. 2020 we went down to 1.5 mg and then my close family member died in December. This time I managed to stay on 1.5 with another .25-.5 as PRN. I'm still having trouble sleeping though and my pdoc said if I wasn't sleeping better with a new scheduled gabapentin dose at night that I was going to need to go back up. She knows how much I don't want that. I've been sick so I'll buy another month but she is adamant that I sleep more and better and that seems to mean more klonopin. I hate that I've seemed to have failed with the attempted reductions but I also want to sleep and that means less anxiety at bedtime...ugh. what a mess. If only she could be my pdoc forever but she's retiring in a few years.