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Nov 20, 2021, 09:10 PM
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I feel pretty bleak and dull. I think i'm going back to sleeping-in. It was 8:30am when i got up this morning. That's getting pretty late.
I applied for a volunteer gig at a nearby hospital but they are not recruiting at this time due to COVID. So that's disappointing. I have a hard time deciding if i'll go thru with volunteering. I think the volunteers at the hospital are mostly on the front line, dealing with the public. I won't like that.
I'm not a 'people-person'; i don't have good social skills and i'm too sensitive to deal with the abuse from the general public. I tried a charity gift-wrapping volunteer gig one Christmas in a desperate attempt to try and wring some pleasure out of the Christmas season and one aggressively ignorant young man told me to pick whatever wrapping paper filled the void in my life. Nice. I didn't go back.
@WindsThatBlow:
I feel lonely too. My phone doesn't ring either. I find it helps a little to take a tame trip to the mall and if someone holds a door for me or motions me in front of them i feel a little better. I hear you on the difficulty showering. I shaved my hair off many weeks ago i was so sick of being chained to the shower. It looks repellent tho so i'm not sure what is worse: feeling ugly or suffering frequent showers as my hair is greasy. I hope it improves for us both soon. You never know, i find when my depression is severe, Wellbutrin works for me. It kicks me into a nice modulated high for quite a while almost immediately. It only works when i'm at the end of my rope tho. Quite a ways to go for me but it sounds like your situation is more intense. Hope you get some relief soon.
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