Today I feel ok. That man was just on TV and just hearing his voice from the other room makes my head hurt. No matter what he’s saying. Last night I took some melatonin and my vistril since it seems to be a good sleep aid. I slept decently. I woke up kinda groggy but at my usual 5:30 time and not at 2:30 and I legit felt for the first time like I am going to be 30 in a year and a couple months. I’m dreading turning 30. But the scale was good. I’m almost at one of my short term goals and my other goal is to get there by Thanksgiving and it’s only 0.4 of a pound. So it should be pretty easy I’d guess. I’m just eating the exact, well pretty much the exact same things as yesterday. Basically I’m not really worried about anything specifically today but I do have a bit of anxiety but it seems to be just about general stuff and I’m not focused on any one thing.

It’s kind of tough to talk about some things with my therapist since she is my age but is so much bigger then I am. Like it’s hard to talk about shopping at Forever 21 or H&M or Hollister when she can’t shop there and it’s like I don’t want to offend her or anything and I avoid Old Navy because there shirts are too big. So it’s like we don’t really talk about clothes. Basically the only thing we have in common is that we both really like coffee. I’ve been to the place she’s talked about twice.