I feel fine at least I’m telling myself that and I’ve just been hanging low all day. Although Facebook is pissing me off a bit more then usual and there’s this old teacher of mine who was freaking out and claiming that she’s not a racist (which isn’t true she’s made derogatory comments before) and another teacher at that same school then replied that she’s not racist and that they loved all their students whatever color they were. Yet this teacher sent me a transphobic PM when I announced my transition last year and it just pisses me off. I wanted to call him out on it and say “but you think being transphobic is cool according to the PM you sent me last year?” but I just tried letting it go. So I watched 2 episodes of Project Runway which worked great for distraction until I turned it off then all the feelings came back and my mom thinks something is wrong and I don’t know if it’s just normal feelings or if it’s med related or if his comment pissed me off that badly. Like do Jesus freaks just not understand they are being hypocrites? I truly don’t get it. Political posts don’t usually get me going this much so I think there could be other issues going on med wise maybe. I don’t know really. I don’t feel like confronting this teacher because of the other people who were responding to the post as well. They were in defense of the teacher, the original poster who was screaming she wasn’t a racist and I would have stuck out as the odd one and it could have gotten bad. I’ve thought of sending him a PM but at the same time I’m trying just to let it go.

And the whole med thing makes me upset too. Because transphobes say these chemicals that trans people put into your body are harmful. And it sounds like just a lot of BS hate they are spewing from their mouths and they have no idea what they are talking about. But I am actually having issues with the meds causing harm to my body and it’s just been confusing and like the bigots have won or something. I don’t know. It’s just a thought in the back of my head that’s been bugging me a lot.