Don’t worry. You don’t need to see this time as a especial one. You’re not forced to. I don’t do it. You are not force to. Think about how many people feel forced to be with who they don’t want to be, to do things they don’t feel like.
For me, it’s another day in life where my partner is free from work so we can be together.
Christmas time, whatever time is not gonna force me to do any different. For me, each day is different and it’s full of opportunities to do what I please. Nothing and noone is gonna make me do things in a different way as I please.

You say the nervous in your stomach because you are forced to do things that are out of your comfort zone? Or because you feel a pressure to feel and enjoy in the same way as others are supposed to do?