I don't think it's weird at all. My nephew was a marine and deployed to Afghanistan twice and Iraq for the start of the war there. He came home for a while and left the service. But now he's back in Iraq working as a civilian for the Air Force. He said he couldn't find the sense of support and comraderie in the private sector. The money is also a factor. He's going to be working in Afghanistan soon.

So no. I don't think you are weird at all. It makes sense that being a warrior is what you were trained for and what you excelled at. There's no shame there. It must be frustrating trying to deal with how mundane everyday life can be when your heart is being torn apart.