What about things that interest you @SarahSweden? Hobbies, interests, pass times? Does reading or maybe learning about specific subjects stimulate you in some way, friend? For me, (I'm very much in a similar situation to you) those things are important. If I find anything interesting or fascinating, then for those moments I just forget I'm alone really. But finding aspects of life to be interesting and fascinating (which includes nature too) is, to me, meaningful. Plus I do my little bit for nature and our planet in my own way, as well. My life isn't like the so-called "normal" people - I accept that, and just take it easy now. You have to play your cards right to survive mental illness.