I don’t like being perceived as scary or threatening. At first, I thought they were paranoid. For years, I refused to admit anything I did was wrong. I’m not working there anymore. Friday was my last day. I have to realize that everyone who told me I was wrong couldn’t all be wrong. I’m really trying to put myself in their shoes and actually try to feel (not just cognitively understand) why people are scared.

I can’t go into details about what exactly happened. Cuz it’s that bad. But I know I don’t want to keep having good feelings towards the next person who is nice to me. Once I FEEL someone is my favorite person, I literally cannot control it.

PS. Sometimes I be passive aggressive towards customers in very subtle way. They don’t think I’m passive aggressive, just stupid. But they do get annoyed. That’s another side effect of my favorite person refusing to talk to me anymore.

Idk. I realize I’m wrong. But I’m still too shaken up currently