Hi and welcome to the Forums. It is very nice to meet you.
I am so sorry that you are in the situation you describe. Things must be so tough for you right now. I can't even imagine what you must be going through.
Having never been married, I am really the last person on the earth to offer advice. Hopefully, though, you will find these Forums helpful. There are a lot of people here going through separations or divorce and I hope they will see your post and respond to it kindly and helpfully. I wish you only the very best!