I struggle all the time with feelings that none of this world is real. It's horrible lonely feeling that your mom was never real and nobody is real. Most of the time that's what I believe. And the inner people laugh at me sometimes but they refuse to be host. They say fronting and outer world feels scary except for a few like Cayla but she hasn't been out for awhile as far as I know. It's just me and little Paul. I keep waiting for this nightmare to end!