yes, i think I do,,,,
i still often dismiss myself as "not really being ill", and that it is a failure on my part not to have done this or that etc etc, and on and on,and on...!
also we live life forwards and think it backwards! , this IS true, but can make our looking back to "who we are now" ,sometimes far too critically,
Causality can seem like a clinical and cold state of affairs, but to see
ourselves in context of all that has been circumstantial, including the organism of brain and body as well , that takes us to these dark places, can soften this hard look at who we are,, we are so stuborn at giving ourselves a break!
i dunno if this might help you,,,,,,,
i have and will be thinking the same way as you still, but am slowly learning to be less hard on myself.....
i could maybe continue sometime else in more depth personally, but it is 2am here in Edinburgh,scotland, but wish you feeling better for now, jmb221,,
take care
alevin
__________________
I ought to be playing piano again
I ought to be doing this and doing that
I ought to just be, and to be just
music doesnt exist until somebody listens to it!
|