I hear you! I know working is tough, especially with a long commute. I have been out of work and now am working again. I recently found a second job on top of my current job. However, I need to work since my taxes are sky-high. So, I am slaving away. If you don't need to work and have other things to do, then do them! Work does not define you as a person. It's just a means to an end. I work because I have to work and wish sometimes I didn't have to. I would enjoy your time for now. Time is valuable too. I sleep on my downtime so wish I could have more time to do other things. If I had money, I would do as I please. So, I think you are lucky that you have family, a place to live, and food to eat. I would look at your situation with joy and count your blessings.