I do know the damage it will do to me if he keeps doing the same thing and worse. But it will be my failure in that once again no matter how much I improve myself on the inside I cannot seem to pick a partner that is deserving of me. I know my value. I am extremely smart. I am passing pretty. I am very caring and extremely loyal. I do have faults but they are not the worst in the world. I've been through counseling I do counseling I am a survivor of previous abusive relationships. But apparently for some reason I cannot pick a man worth a damn