Well my ultrasound waws very bad. It was not just the normal ultrasound and so it was very triggering for me. when the lady left the room I just started crying, I was so shaken up. But I did have a doctors appointment right after and well it didn't really help either cause I had to wait an hour to see her and an hour with that much anxiety is almost bound to trigger dissociation with me. I don't know that anything extreme happened when I was gone but I know I was missing some time. I also told my doctor I was having a hard time and she clearly saw that. She then wrote an order for me to have 2 klonopin to calm down, which ended up knocking me out for the night. Then for some odd reason I found myself at some guy's house who I know is not good for me to be around but I am just so lost and confused. Cause now that is all started again, for the 7th time. I just dont' know what I am doing. I am so lost. I really need someone to help me and step in on this because I can't handle it, I can't control whether I go over there or not, I don't know what to do.
Thank you all for supporting me.

Jennifer