Hi
Thanks for answering.
I think I have a view of 'normal' because I was constantly told as a child to copy other children (because they were normal and my behaviour wasn't due to the autism ie stimming due to anxiety)
So I've grown up knowing I'm 'not normal' and people can see that and always made fun of me.
eg whatever music I liked as a teen was laughed at..so I learned to like what was popular and keep my real favourite things a secret so I fit with normal.
I'm in my 50's so my early childhood was the 70's and 80's so not as much was known about Autism, particularly in girls.
Still when I meet someone new I'm trying to fit in with what I was told was 'normal' if I feel they maybe someone who may make fun of me if they knew I had autism.
Physical disabilities are much more accepted by the general public.