I hope things get better for you, @jrae

You sound like you're in a lot of emotional or stressful pain.

The good doctors can help, but the bad ones - not so much. I hope you have good doctors, and that whatever is going on is manageable - at least once the doctors find out what is going on.

I get frustrated with my medical issues that seemingly are ignored until I'm "old enough" (I'm 47, so 50 or 60 are the magical years when maybe the docs will start to take my symptoms seriously - if I'm not worsened by then, and if I'm still alive.)

I also struggle with my mental illness, though I do have a good therapist to help me learn better coping skills for each particular issue that comes up. It's not an overnight process, but it's doable. It's painful, but doable.

I hope you are able to find support through this rough time, and I hope you find the help and healing you need.

Hang in there.