Thanks. I agree with all that.

I used to run away from therapy so often by canceling it forever that my 1st T made a deal with me that if I end therapy that we would have at least one final session. It worked great for her, but it didn't work for me on my suicide day when she called me at the psych ward to terminate me forever. When I got out of the ward I emailed her for closure, but to my shock she didn't reply. After two months of emailing her about a dozen times I finally gave up. Nobody will ever know how much trauma and pain that gave me. It was like my mom terminating me. The first 3 months that's all my mind would let me think about. It took about a year before it wasn't that painful. Maybe that sounds strange to most people. She just really cared for me and made me feel like someone actually thought I was worth saving. She could have prevented all of that by giving me a 5 minute phone call for closure.

Anyhow, online telehealth video therapy is awesome, IMO. At first I went in person with 1st T but then covid got bad so we started doing telehealth video. I actually like it a lot because it eases my anxiety. But I miss person to person therapy. My DID therapist made me see him in person. He was kind of far away.

Speaking of Ts, my system wants to do therapy again. Awhile back I was looking into IFS Ts and came across this lady. She called me on phone & seemed very enthusiastic to give me therapy. Only thing that concerns me is on her profile under Focus it says "faith-friendly/Christians." I'm not against religion, but since it was shoved down my throat like crazy in childhood it's something I don't want. Besides that she seems very nice, and she's level 3 IFS.

Audrey Davidheiser

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Hope your vision is better!

I actually used like calling myself weird. After years of therapy I kinda want to be normal. It must be a product of therapy. :/