I still have compassion for my husband—I assume. However I have lost patience with his ultra rude behavior and selfishness. I am not feeling compassion, I am feeling annoyed by him.
I don’t gaf almost. I’m growing cold, grown cold. I don’t want to give more than the middle, I only want to compromise fairly.
I’m not able to size up the state of the relationship. I think it could be quickly better, which I think means its not that bad, is fixable. But am I wrong? his behavior can be so annoying (that’s how I think of it NOW). I’m so resentful and sooo annoyed and frustrated by him!
Does it get better?
It’s like don’t criticize him. Don’t be a b. Don’t be crazy (calls ME crazy frequently when I’m not). He acts up acts out freaks out is so LOUD. He might never talk to you either!
He makes strides too and fixes some problems, so that’s encouraging.
He communicates poorly with others. Very awkward. Offensive paranoid overbearing. he can be charming, but he acts so obnoxiously sometimes, and it’s not excusable obnoxiousness sometimes. I feel like I’m being so mean and I would feel bad if he read this and got upset.
He has bipolar and takes meds and is bouncing back from near break. It’s been a few years or so, but it takes a lot of time for him heal.
I work to protect all our lives health and sanity. But sometimes I realize it’s dysfunctional. But then it okay again the next minute.
It doesn’t make any sense and it’s exhausting!!
It’s like I’m rejecting because I need boundaries. Or rejecting if I want him to have limits. Or unsupportive if I don’t trust his choices. And stupid when I trust his choices! At least sometimes.