@raging vortex I'm so sorry that you've had really negative therapy experiences. I have, too. And, BTW, what your T said about "breaking" you sounds harsh. First, you're not a horse or some animal that needs to be broken. Second, unless you have a condition that warrants "attack therapy," she shouldn't be trying to "break you" (like they do in the military). Third, that therapist is no good; find another one.

In the meantime, this might help you feel validated and understood a little more. Author Jeffrey Moussaieff Masson penned a book called Against Therapy: Emotional Tyranny and the Myth of Psychological Healing. It might be worth checking out.

I still have yet to purchase the book and read it. I was going to, but then I found a really good therapist. I really lucked out. I haven't lost hope in therapists, but it was a battle for the past 2.5 decades (or 25 years)!

Hang in there.

Oh, and thanks for the complement on this thread. I try. I think I and my alters get ourselves in trouble sometimes for speaking our minds. We really have trouble following certain rules. We're trying, but we're kind of raw and angry at the moment - that is, pandemic trauma angry.