Hey L. Thinking of you and hoping you're feeling better and that you don't have covid again. I'm really fighting with myself right now to stay positive since the news about the new variant broke. Maybe I'll give what you said a try for the rest of today and just completely not look at anything covid-related. I was talking with my sister earlier and she said she's struggling too but not with sadness/depression, it's with her own internal anger at the anti-vaxxers. She's pissed and no longer caring who knows it. I told her I've never learned how to let myself be angry - I so quickly turn it inward on myself and it becomes the sadness and depression. I know I have the tools to deal with this. Why am I not using them? Most of all more than anything else though I'm worried for you.
well I guess at least we got to start processing this ending together (i can't help but wonder now if I somehow knew something and that's why I felt so driven to start this ending processing when I did, you being sick now kinda puts the whole 'i need to leave before you leave me' thing in a new light doesn't it) and I can be grateful for that if nothing else.