Busy day at work today. Then I came home and didn't stop for a minute so I've been busy for 5 hours straight non-stop. I listened to a podcast about panpsychism in relation to physics and consciousness..

I'm gonna smoke weed only after times that I've been busy for a long time cuz once I'm done, my mind is still spinning while I'm still. Stimulant helps as well - But I'm happy that I gave back the dept of the one capsule that I took two nights ago so today = No withdrawal.

I'm horribly dependent on even 1/3 of my daily stimulant dose which is definitely not good. I'll have to ask my psychiatrist to do something lawful like a patient protection (If that exists?) because some psychiatrists straight up don't like stimulants and will take me off of them cold turkey without notice.

It happened before because a new psychiatrist said that "Vyvanse is like crack" and took me off of it. I slept for 10 days straight so my mom had to come in and demand him to prescribe it again. I don't abuse it anymore but after I did, my mom dispensed the pills.