I found that grief is a long and slow process and everyone experiences it in their own way.

Things happened very recently and the wounds you suffered are still fresh and raw. It might take time to come to accept what happened to you. It's a terrible loss made worse by the way it happened.

Maybe you can take comfort in knowing that your wife passed away beside you. She wasn't alone, she wasn't scared. She was next to you in the bed that you shared. Maybe she didn't even know what happened. Perhaps she went to sleep next to you and her time came for her to move on from this life and she simply never woke up. And you were next to her at the moment she passed.

Remember the time you had with her. Remember the little things. Remember what she sounded like. She would want you to remember those times and cherish them.

Grief comes in waves. The time between each wave is very short right now, but it will slowly get longer, giving you time to cherish and remember.

I know it's hard right now, but it gets a little better each day. I found that writing in a journal helped me a lot. When my sister passed away I would write to her, I would write about her, and sometimes i wrote nothing at all.

It's been almost 5 years since my sister passed away and I still think about her and miss her. The grief is still there but it's much better than it once was.