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Originally Posted by ArtieTheSequal
Hey L. Thinking of you and hoping you're feeling better and that you don't have covid again. I'm really fighting with myself right now to stay positive since the news about the new variant broke. Maybe I'll give what you said a try for the rest of today and just completely not look at anything covid-related. I was talking with my sister earlier and she said she's struggling too but not with sadness/depression, it's with her own internal anger at the anti-vaxxers. She's pissed and no longer caring who knows it. I told her I've never learned how to let myself be angry - I so quickly turn it inward on myself and it becomes the sadness and depression. I know I have the tools to deal with this. Why am I not using them? Most of all more than anything else though I'm worried for you.
well I guess at least we got to start processing this ending together (i can't help but wonder now if I somehow knew something and that's why I felt so driven to start this ending processing when I did, you being sick now kinda puts the whole 'i need to leave before you leave me' thing in a new light doesn't it) and I can be grateful for that if nothing else. |
I hope your T is okay and recovers soon, and I hope your T and you have a strengthened relationship!
I fear this happening to my own T. I don't want my T to get Covid at all. I am worried about her. She uses precautions like wearing masks, but she nonetheless travels and sees other vaccinated clients (or those who lie and say they are vaccinated, as my therapist only requires that they claim they are vaccinated in order to see her in person). For these reasons and more, I don't see my T in person - only online via Zoom. It's sad, but it's for both of our protections, as well as for her other clients' protection should I ever become asymptomatic (though I isolate in place and take extremes to prevent Covid).
I'm dealing with pandemic trauma and pandemic stress, too.
I plan on telling my T this tomorrow in session online. I've already emailed my T about my concerns and about the articles regarding the new variant.
I worry about my T's health very much, too!