I think your precautions are a good move, otroo. I'm glad to also read that you had a nice distraction with your friend, in the mountains.

Scooter9 makes good points about grief. It is hard, I know, and still so early for you that the horrible mental pictures are fresh. It took me a long while to start having more positive memories about my late mother, as she also died almost suddenly and unexpectedly, in a scary way. But time did bring the positive back, though sadly it doesn't bring our loved ones back, physically. But you will be OK. Keep doing your best to stay safe