and you begin to see that progress isn't always about feeling good or being told what you'd love to hear, its about facing ALL of the emotions and situations in life as they are. It feels like a letting go of the long held fantasys and being struck suddenly my revelations that you think will kill you but then you feel strong enought inside now to deal with this breaking down of the infantile thinking..It feels like I am in my feelings now and not looking at them through a glass wall. I feel like I have all these little people inside of me doing press-ups and knowing that each time I am hit with pain, I am now strenghting my inner world muscles and KNOW THIS NOW, before I had no understanding of inner strenght, no experience of it only of falling apart now its like a cycle, fall apart and then re-build...no more luxury of playing "victim" and having the fantasy that I will be taken care off, I realise I'm an adult along with all the other adults in the world...

DISCLAIMER...

I use "victim" because this is my view of my experiences and am no responsible for how others read this post.