I had a lot of feelings for transfernce T yesterday. When I saw our tree being put up it just reminded me of last year at this time and how I was struggling so much during the holidays. I was really feeling things yesterday. As for my current therapist shes nice and helpful but I dont have romantic feelings for her because of the age thing. Its almost like I want? To have feelings for her to get this history with transferencre T off my chest. But I'm just not feeling it even with being back on the meds. I need to talk to her about this though but I've mentioned my crush with transference T before with my current T and she seemed a bit creeped out. So I don't even know where to begin how to explain what I'm not even sure what I'm feeling or thinking. I'm just really confused.