I think it might be time for me to move on. I don't think you have what would be helpful to me at this point. Not that I know what that is. Actually, I feel like it's a med adjustment, but that's not something you can help me with.

I hope I feel better in the morning, but finding it hard to even hope at this point. After all, why would I feel better when nothing has changed? I guess in the past, my brain has managed to find a way to rebound. But I haven't had such a long episode of completely unrelenting depression in ages... half a lifetime ago, literally.

I would be completely lost if not for J.