It doesn't sound so bad does it?

I think I know what you mean. I have an addiction that actually feeds into the SI urges -- tattooing. I generally get one once a year (total of 3 so far) and after I get one I don't feel the urges, and I feel satisfied long after the euphoria wears off.

Maybe it's not healthy, but it does make sense to me

Take care,
Kimberly

P.S. Great job on starting the lawn care early. I need to get off my tuckus and start some upgrades and weeding myself.